What a Wild Ride!

So since the miscarriage, my body has gone for a wild ride! For some reason my body really likes to be pregnant, and will not let the baby pass naturally. That is where I had my ordeal. I was given a medicine on Monday (3/16) to help the process. It seemed to work and I felt fine after everything happened.
Well I went to bed on Thursday and woke up about 3am with some cramping. I called Sandor, he had left for Homer and was coming back Friday morning, and told him that the cramping wasn't normal and I was going to pack Ruben up and go to the E.R.
Well in the 5 minutes I was on the phone with him my pain went from bad to worse! I could barely talk on the phone, let alone walk! He said that he was going to call an ambulance for me, and to make sure the door was unlocked. I had to get Ruben changed, in his car seat, with a bottle before they came. Praise the Lord, Sandor called Haley and Josiah who happened to be up from Homer and they arrived the same time the paramedics did. From the time the paramedics arrived to when they put me on a stretcher, I was cramping and bleeding worse! They gave me a pain med that didn't do anything, but I was at the hospital in no time.
When I arrived they gave me morphine and my body finally had relief. Sandor showed up by 8:30am and I was told by the doctor, that it seemed that my body was trying to get rid of tissue left over. So he gave me more of the same medicine to take orally later that day and I was able to leave the hospital. My bleeding and cramping went away, and I felt fine.
Saturday morning (3/21) I woke up to some cramping and decided to take the medicine, and try to relax. Well that didn't work so well when I threw up the medicine! My body was repeating everything from the morning before BUT 10 TIMES WORSE! Sandor and I loaded Ruben up and we went back to the ER. Kristin and Jon came to the hospital to watch Ruben. My sister Ellie came to see me and Terry and Jonnie came up from Homer. It took a few doses of pain meds 10x stronger then morphine to get the pain down, and I was then told that a DNC was in store for me.
Fortunately I was knocked out for that surgery and I felt nothing, not to mention I remember nothing! I was able to leave Saturday evening after a good nap. Since then, I am back to normal and have no cramping or unusual bleeding! Thank you to ALL of you that helped and prayed for us! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, to Josiah and Haley, Kristin and Jon, my sister Ellie and Terry and Jonnie for EVERYTHING! For helping Sandor and I with Ruben when we needed you guys the most... We are TRULY blessed to have friends and family like you!!

Ruben is 8 months old! Sandor and I cant believe how big he has gotten, he is fitting into his 18 month outfits... and He is crawling EVERYWHERE, and pulling himself up onto EVERYTHING! He will walk if he has something he can hold onto. He is starting to stand up, then let go of his support! Freaks me out sometimes, but the boy has to learn some how! He is starting to eat some solid foods, like melt-away crackers and such. He has a tooth starting to pop put FINALLY! It doesn't seem to bother him at all. He is one tough kid...

Sandor is starting to practice his driving to get his CDL for this summer. He is going to work for Scott Services again, which is SUCH A BLESSING! Its very comforting to know that we don't have to wonder what Sandor will be doing for work in the summer! Scott and Angie are really great people and we love getting to know them. I received flowers from them this last week and it was SO sweet and unexpected!

I'm looking forward to summer, I'm ready to go all over all the state with Ruben. I told Sandor that even if he doesn't come, Ruben and I are going :) I will not be working a set schedule this summer and will have LOTS of time with a busy little boy!
We will be going to Homer next week and will be down there for a week! I CANNOT WAIT! I need a Homer trip...

God is SO in control!

So this week has been a week for Sandor and I to TRULY understand that our God is completely in control of our lives... a bittersweet experience can have SUCH an impact on a child of God.

We found out at 7wks that I had miscarried the baby. A few days before that, I started to spot. The "somethings not right" feeling had popped up and I knew right away that miscarriage was a huge possibility. So I went to my MOST WONDERFUL husband and shared my heart. That was when I grieved. God was there right in the middle, reaffirming that He is Sovereign. We prayed for the couple days before we went to the doctor. When I went in for my ultrasound, my body had already started to absorb the baby, and of course no heartbeat. Yes, we were very sad, and hoping for a miracle. BUT we were prepared by the grace of God! For me, a miscarriage just means a different due date.
This peace is ONLY from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! He is my true comforter and is my faithful confidant and the healer of my heart. I am truly understanding more and more of how jealous God is for MY HEART, for my everything!! Sanctification is number one for me and my family (praise the Lord). Becoming more and more like Jesus is vital and comes BEFORE my husband and BEFORE my child.
Trial and tribulation are there for me to know Jesus more intimately and understand that He is doing things out of LOVE! What an amazing God we serve!

On Saturday I had my first official Redeeming Love get-together! It went fantastic. We had an awesome turnout and the food was great :) I took the opportunity to share my heart and the vision I had with forming Redeeming Love Ministries. I have a mission statement below...

"To give women a true understanding of who they are in Christ, equip them to be ready for the battle over their heart. and to present opportunities for them to fall in love with their Savior, Jesus Christ over and over again."

I was very humbled and blessed to have this ministry kick-off with an amazing start. The ladies really opened up and are excited to have a women's ministry within V-180.

Sandor led worship for the first time with V-180 this morning!! That is his ministry from here on out and let me tell you, HE IS EXCITED for whats in store! This is such a God thing and its so exciting to see my hubby minister and see how God is already using him!
I have a leadership conference that I will help teach next weekend. My dad is teaching a session as well. Sandor will be leading a 2-3 hour worship service and that is coming along great. My dad is playing electric guitar, Colin my brother will be playing drums, Alex is playing bass, and Sandor is playing acoustic and singing! They have been practicing, and lets just say we WILL feel the Holy Spirit work that night!!

Ruben is crawling everywhere! He said his first official word- dadada!! SO CUTE! He is growing and growing. He was VERY sick this last week and a half. Thankfully is getting better. His nose is letting all that gunk out, and he can breathe SO much easier. The first night his stuffiness came was the worst night I had with him since he was born! WOW! But we got through it without becoming walking zombies!

We want to give EVERYBODY A HUGE THANK YOU for voting for us on the Fisher Plow contest. Even though we didn't get the plow, we did get an I-Pod touch!! Its very fun and Sandor LOVES it! SO thanks again for showing your love and support!